That Time Again

It's that time of the month again.  My wife is due to start her period, which means my hormones are going out of whack.  I'm starting to get more emotional (like I wasn't bad enough) and my female urges get stronger.  I'm kind of sad that I'm no longer on Step 1 of the patch, because I always had the best dreams during this time.  Some so real that I thought I was a woman.  But this time just the normal strong urges. 

For example I wore heals on my way into work today.  Women's shoes are so much more comfortable than men's.  And I'm getting some sexual urges too this time around.  I hate to say it, but I have penis on the brain.  Not to be confused with my brain being in my penis.  All I can think about is having sex with a guy and especially going down on a guy.  I close my eyes and all I visualize is kneeling down in front of a guy, grabbing his penis and putting in my mouth.  Just typing this, I'm getting turned on.  These urges haven't been this strong before.  Normally it is a quick thought and then it's gone.  Today, it's all I can think about.  Maybe it wouldn't be so strong if I had ever done it before, or maybe it would be stronger.  I don't know.  Right now I wish I could just find a guy that I know that would let me try it on him.  Just once.  I think I need a cold shower now.