So Saturday was the day I was going to get my eyebrows waxed and go to a friends house as a girl since it is a safe place. Well I got the courage to get my eyebrows done. I showed up about 20 mins early to my appointment and they took me right away. When the lady asked me what I wanted done, I was honest and told her I wanted a slightly more feminine brow. Less bushy and shaped. She did exactly what I wanted. I was happy with the outcome and it was also subtle enough that I wouldn't get weird looks.
As for going to my friends house as a girl, that didn't end up happening. It took all morning to gain the courage to get dressed and I was about to start putting on makeup. Then the sky opened up and it was pouring out. My wife asked me why I was putting on makeup if it's raining. She said it would run. Well that's all I needed to wipe away any courage I had. It's not her fault. But I look for any excuse to let the fear take over. And I got it. I did bring my clothes and makeup with me, but never put them on. I know one of my friends was disappointed. But I just couldn't muster up the courage again. Maybe some other time I can do it. Why did I let the fear win?? Why am I always looking for an excuse not to do it?? What was the worse that could have happened?? Nothing, but I gave in anyway. Ugh.
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