Being a transgender woman, there have been many times I have wished I would have been born female rather than male. I'm sure many transgender people wish that. But the more I think about about it, if I was born female, I may not of had the experiences or the friends I have. Yes my body would be the way I want it, but maybe not the life I wanted. It is the events and experiences that shape who we are. If I had been born female, would I have the same close group of friends I have now? Would I have been involved in theater? Would I have ever met my wife? Would I have gone to school in NC and thus ever discovered the Lost Colony theater where I spent 4 amazing summers with amazing people? Would I still be me at the core?
As much as I wish I was female, I'm not sure I wish I was born female. I can't imagine my life without ever being with my wife. I can't imagine not having the friends I have now. I like who I am even if my body doesn't match. Someday it will match, but by taking HRT I will still be me on the inside. I will still have my wife and my friends. I wouldn't give them up for anything. I would never want to change who I am on the inside. I wouldn't want a different life that I have now. Is it hard? Yes, but it is worth it.
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