Little Things

As I take this journey of transition, there are a few little things I do to keep the dysphoria in check.  As I am not out full time and most likely won't be a work, I can still do things to keep me feeling feminine even though I am still presenting as male.

1. I only wear woman's underwear.  Unless I am in a situation wear I absolutely have to, I have stopped wearing men's underwear. 
2. Unless it is extremely warm/humid out, I wear a bra.  Only issue is I have to wear my fleece jacket to hide that I am wearing a bra.
3. Almost every Friday and every weekend I wear my hair down.
4. I wear either women's dress pants, jeans, or shorts.  Monday thru Thursday I have to dress up for work so I wear black women's dress pants and a man's button down shirt.  Friday's are casual so I wear women's jeans.  And on the weekends I can wear women's shorts and tank tops.
5. I wear women's boots to work.  They have a 1 3/4" heel.
6. I only wear women's socks.
7. Some days as I am driving to work I will wear heels in my car and change out of them when I get to work.
8. Some days I also will put in my hoop earrings while I am driving and take them out when I get to work.
9. A few times a week, I will change into a skirt when I get home from work.
10. I keep my toe nails painted.  The only place that I don't show off my painted toes is work.  Otherwise I will wear sandals and not care if people see my painted toes.
11. I carry a purse with me to work, but I put my messenger bag in front of it so it is not as obvious.
12. I wear a woman's watch now all the time, unless I'm going to be doing something where it can get damaged.
13. Occasionally I will shave my face with a straight razor to have it be as smooth as possible.  Only issue with doing that everyday is I will burn through a razor each time and they get pricey.
14. When I go swimming I wear my bikini bottom under my men's swim trunks.

I wish I could present as a woman all the time and not have to hide it.  I would love to be able to wear skirts all the time and heels.  Hopefully someday that wish will become a reality.  But until then, I will continue to do these little things.