New Clothes

So this past weekend I really needed new jeans, so my wife and I went to Old Navy and I actually found some cute jeans that fit perfectly.  These are the ones I got:

After I got them and of course worn them the rest of the weekend, I thought I really need some new tops.  Cute tops.  So I went online to Old Navy and looked through their shirts.  These are what I ordered and plus some purple tights (everyone needs purple tights ;P):

It all arrived yesterday afternoon.  I could not wait to get home and try on the clothes.  Of course there were two accidents on my way home that delayed me getting home.  But I finally got home and immediately went into the bedroom to try on my new clothes.  Everything fit great and looked great.  My favorites are the plaid shirts.  They are so comfy.  Took me a bit to get them on.... I got to get used to buttons being on the other side of the shirt.  

I decided to be daring and I am wearing the red and white plaid shirt with my new jeans to work. I think today is the first day I have worn all female clothes and not a stitch of male clothing to work.  They are not overly feminine so I don't have to worry about getting weird looks from the guys I work with.  I am just so excited that I am slowly building my new wardrobe.  I can not wait until I have more girl clothes than guy clothes.

Been a While

It has been almost a month since I last posted.  Life has been busy and my transition had stalled.  At first my transition started like a runaway freight train, but then it stopped and has been hard to get it moving again.  But it is slowly, very slowly moving again.  Over the past month I have only partially dressed at home.  Mainly changing into a skirt when I got home from work.  However Sunday night I did get to practice putting on makeup.  I was letting fear talk me out of it, but my wife gave me a push.  It took about 30 mins to apply and only had it on for about 15 mins, but it was progress.  Here are two pics of the results:

According to my wife it looked good for going out a night.  Really need to learn to be more subtle with my makeup.  But practice makes perfect right??

Oh and my wife and I have come up with what our costumes will be for Halloween.  We are sticking to an Alice in Wonderland theme.  She's going to be Alice and I'm going to be the Queen of Hearts.  Here is a pic of my costume (if we can afford to get them):

I've got less than a month to buy the costumes and get the nerve to wear this one.  I think I can, I think I can.  And at least makeup wise I can do it for nights. :)

Little Things

As I take this journey of transition, there are a few little things I do to keep the dysphoria in check.  As I am not out full time and most likely won't be a work, I can still do things to keep me feeling feminine even though I am still presenting as male.

1. I only wear woman's underwear.  Unless I am in a situation wear I absolutely have to, I have stopped wearing men's underwear. 
2. Unless it is extremely warm/humid out, I wear a bra.  Only issue is I have to wear my fleece jacket to hide that I am wearing a bra.
3. Almost every Friday and every weekend I wear my hair down.
4. I wear either women's dress pants, jeans, or shorts.  Monday thru Thursday I have to dress up for work so I wear black women's dress pants and a man's button down shirt.  Friday's are casual so I wear women's jeans.  And on the weekends I can wear women's shorts and tank tops.
5. I wear women's boots to work.  They have a 1 3/4" heel.
6. I only wear women's socks.
7. Some days as I am driving to work I will wear heels in my car and change out of them when I get to work.
8. Some days I also will put in my hoop earrings while I am driving and take them out when I get to work.
9. A few times a week, I will change into a skirt when I get home from work.
10. I keep my toe nails painted.  The only place that I don't show off my painted toes is work.  Otherwise I will wear sandals and not care if people see my painted toes.
11. I carry a purse with me to work, but I put my messenger bag in front of it so it is not as obvious.
12. I wear a woman's watch now all the time, unless I'm going to be doing something where it can get damaged.
13. Occasionally I will shave my face with a straight razor to have it be as smooth as possible.  Only issue with doing that everyday is I will burn through a razor each time and they get pricey.
14. When I go swimming I wear my bikini bottom under my men's swim trunks.

I wish I could present as a woman all the time and not have to hide it.  I would love to be able to wear skirts all the time and heels.  Hopefully someday that wish will become a reality.  But until then, I will continue to do these little things.

Pinterest

I am so addicted to the women’s apparel category on Pinterest.  I see all these cute outfits I wish I could wear.  Hopefully some day I can wear them.  For now I just repin them into my Fashion for Friends board so people don’t know that they are for me.