Another Debate

This Saturday I will be going to a friend's house to meet one of her other friends who lives over seas.  She has told her friend all about me.  The option was given to me to either come as my male self, my female self or somewhere in-between.  I don't know what to do.  The fear that has been very vocal lately is telling not to because who knows who will see me and I will still look to male even if I dress as a girl.  But I need to acknowledge that fear and put it aside and be the true me.  I'm thinking of wearing my teal tank top and my jean skirt.  No bra.  It's kind of subtle without being all out.  Maybe have my hair down.  Maybe wear earrings.  No makeup, but maybe I'll bring my kit with me just in case.  I don't know.  Or I'll end up letting fear win and just go as my quasi male self.  I need to beat this fear.  I need to build up my confidence and self esteem to be who I really am.  I just don't know.  Ugh.