Pandora's Box

I feel like Pandora's Box has been opened.  Before Saturday the desires where there... the knowing who I was was there.  But after Saturday, looking like a woman in front of one of my best friends who did my makeup and dressed me up, with no drugs to uninhibit me like the previous time, I want to do it more.  I feel like Saturday has added fuel to the fire.  I want to be a woman even more.  I want to look like that more often.  I want to dress like that more often.  I want the world to see me as I really am, instead of hiding it and staying male.  All I can think of is the next time I get to do it.  I want to work on my voice so it won't give me away.  I want to learn how to do my own makeup so I don't always have to rely on someone else.  I want to learn to do up my own hair so I don't have to wear a wig.  I want the next time I do this to be documented like a photo shoot.  Pandora's Box has been opened and I think there is no stopping it.  I love this feeling.  :)