The Wish

Since I was 13 years old, I had the desire to be female.  But I never fully admitted it to myself.  Even though I didn't admit it, every night as I went to bed I made a wish.  At first I kept it simple and just wished to be a girl.  As I got older, I began to make the wish a little more complicated.  I think I am making these wishes to save myself from some of the stress and hardships that can come from transitioning.  The wish has evolved over time and as it stands now, it goes like this:  "I wish, I prey, I ask that I may become a woman.  Whenever, where ever I want for as long as I want.  And I may turn back into myself when needed.  As a woman everyone would think they have always known me as a woman."  I know wishes like this won't ever come true.  I know there is no magical way to transition.  No spell or wish or magic pill or machine.  But it seems that the essence of the wish is coming true.  I have accepted myself as transgender and ready to take the step to transition.  And it seems that everyone I open up to about it says they already knew.