Fear to Excitement

As I posted yesterday, me, my wife and a bunch of friends are going to the Pride parade in NYC on Sunday.  At first I was scared to go.  I wasn't sure whether to go as a boy or as a girl.  I finally decided to go as a girl.  Making that decision really scared me.  It is a giant step for me.  Going out in public as a girl for the first real time.  What if I can't pull it off?  What if my voice gives me away?  My head was swirling.  But over the course of my drive home from work, my fear was starting to turn to excitement.  I started thinking of all the things I needed to do before Sunday to go out as a girl.  I have to get some makeup supplies.  I need to figure out what to wear.  Luckily one of my best friends is about the same size as me, so either tonight or tomorrow morning I will be raiding her closet to try to find an outfit to wear.  I also needed to figure out shoes.  Which I think I figured out this morning.  I'm going to wear the new gladiator style sandals I got on Wednesday.  It will be a good chance to really break them in.  But I will also bring my Vibram toe shoes with me to change into when my feet start killing me.  I'm so excited.   I have to practice my makeup on Saturday to prepare for Sunday.   I can not wait.