More Steps

More steps in my journey have been taken yesterday.  One of my best friends texted me asking if it was ok to tell her kids.  This was something I had been debating for a while.  Whether or not to let my friends tell their kids.  I was unsure how it would go.  But I figured I can't keep it hidden forever so I said yes.  I found out they took it very well.  One was afraid that they could no longer come over our house, which of course they still can.  The other wanted to know if she could do my makeup, paint my nails, and play barbies with her.  I just wanted to cry happy tears when I heard that.  Then when I went over, my friends son came up to me and said "I know, and it's ok to feel that way."  I just wanted to melt.  I love how accepting kids are.

Also I received my Victoria Secret order last night.  I got my first bikini (which as I said in an earlier post, that I always felt uncomfortable wearing men's swim trunks and having a bare chest), a pair of women's open toed sandals (kind of gladiator style), and a makeup kit (so I can start practicing putting on makeup).  I put on the sandals as soon as I got them and wore them to my friends house.  They wore obviously woman's sandals and you could see my green painted toe nails.  I felt so comfortable wearing them.  I also tried on the bikini I got.  This was the first time I ever put on a bikini.  At first I wasn't sure.  I looked in the mirror and realized I need to loose a little more weight (at least in my eyes).  My wife thinks I look good in it.  I just wish my but looked better and I wish my face was more feminine.  Guess I gotta really practice at putting on makeup so when I do try on stuff, I don't see a guy wearing women's clothes in the mirror.  :)

Another step is my wife just told me they are having a mandatory meeting at work for the new law that prevents discrimination against transgender.  She is going to share our story during the training.  I'm so proud of her for her courage to open up.