The Debate

This weekend even though I will not be in NC for a reunion, my wife and I will be going to a friends house for the weekend.  For the past 25 years, this friend has held a weekend party to celebrate his birthday.  I have been going for the past 7 years.  He is a theater techie and most of the people that will be there are people I used to work with when I was in theater.  The debate is whether or not to come out to them.  They are friends, but I don't see them much anymore.  Most theater people are very open minded, but techies are very hard to read.  It could go over well or it could not.  I acknowledge the fear is talking when I'm worried it won't go over well.  But is this the right setting to come out to them?  Does it matter if they know?  Maybe like everyone else, they know and are just waiting for me to say it.  Should I go with my toes painted or should I remove my nail polish and just be the old reserved me.  I'm not sure.  Part of me thinks they won't care, another part of me worries they will make fun of me.  Ugh.  I hate when I have this debate going on in my head.  Maybe I should just go with my toes painted and if someone says something that could be the ice breaker?  At least I have till Friday to decide.