Getting Anxious

I have been anxious lately.  It has now been a couple weeks since I have fully dressed as a woman.  I've been wearing a bra everyday.  Occasionally I put in my hoop earrings as I drive into work and take them out when I pull in.  I have put on a skirt a couple of times while at home.  But I really want to go full out again.  Still haven't practiced putting on makeup yet.  I do fine with the foundation, powder, lips, and mascara, but I still have issues with eyeliner, eye shadow and blush.  Every time I get close to practicing I seem to talk myself out of it.  Not sure why.  Maybe I'm still feeling a bit ashamed of myself... I'm letting the fear get to me.  I try to face it and ignore the fear, but lately it has been stronger.  I want to fight the fear.  I want to be myself as a woman.  I want to get the courage to buy more woman's clothes and be able to wear them.  I am hating wearing men's clothes more and more... they just aren't looking right on me anymore.  I don't know.  Most likely I will be discussing this tonight in therapy.  Hopefully I will make some headway. :)