Hating a Part of Me

There is a part of my body that I hate.  I only hate it because it is a part of me.  I do not hate this body part on other people.  It is my penis.  I hate it.  It is a constant reminder that I am a man.  I hate it to the point that I've had dreams where I've cut it off.  There are times that I will tape it up inside me so I can experience what it is like to not have one.  But unfortunately after a while the tape makes my skin raw.  I hate having it between my legs.  I hate when it gets hard.  The only good thing about having a penis is peeing standing up.  That's it.  I would give that up in a heart beat for it to be gone.