Not a Real Girl

This past weekend was an amazing time with good friends.  At least until the end of the weekend.  As I went to pick up breakfast with one of my friends, she made a comment that bothered me.  We were sitting in the diner waiting for our large to go order and she started talking about a camping trip.  She said it's an all girls weekend and my wife could come, but it is only for real girls.  I know that I am not a real girl.  I know I still look like a male on the outside.  She knows that I desire to become a girl, but that comment really hurt.  It's like, gee thanks for pointing out that I'm still male on the outside.  I wanted to tell her that if there is an event that is all girls and I'm not invited... please don't tell me about it.  I wish she knew how hard it is for me.  Growing up a majority of my friends have been girls and it hurts when I get excluded because of me being male.  It's not my fault I was born in the wrong body.  It just eats at me.  Comments like that and being left out makes me want to pursue going through the transition even more.  But it does have me wonder too.  If I went through the transition and became a woman, would I still be included?  Would I be treated as a "real girl" by them for these types of things or will they still exclude me because I would have been once male?  I'm a little terrified to know that answer.  I don't know why this is eating me up inside so much.  I just want to find a place to belong.  The more I become comfortable with my desire to be a woman the more I feel lost and no longer have a sense of belonging.  I don't fit in with the guys because I don't really like doing guy things.... ie fishing, playing video games, etc.  But I don't fit in with the girls either, I am male and they just see my outward appearance.  Argh... it is so frustrating.  I like girl stuff... shopping, shoes, clothes, makeup, etc.  I like talking about boys and such.  I wish I could just fit in.  I wish......