Ups and Downs

As I become more accepting of myself wanting to become a woman, I have noticed that I have highs and lows of the urges.  There have been times when the urge is not as dominant.  I let the masculine side show through and I am more attracted to women.  But then there are times like I am going through right now.  The urge is very high with me wanting to be a woman.  I am praying and wishing almost every hour for some "magic" (which I know is unrealistic) to change me into a woman.  I look at women and think its not fair that they are female and I am not.  I want to dress more feminine. I can't get the thoughts of being a woman out of my head.  As time has been progressing I have noticed the highs are lasting longer and longer and the lows only last a brief time.